These OMGing days

I can't remember the last time everything has been so hectic. Yesterday afterschool I had to rush home then rush back to school for a brief rehearsal before our actual performance of Chatroom. I was really tired and my stomach being low on food, didn't help a lot.

It turned out to go pretty well. At one point, I'd forgotten when to go on stage again, so I just went earlier...just in case. It turned out that I was too early, so I had to wait on stage for 2 whole scenes before I could say my two petty lines.

Anyway, right now I'm in the library, with still 30 minutes left before my chinese lesson. So I'll give you a bit more info about the people around me every day:

This guy I used to like is turning out very different. He used to have a little something and now that little something is quenched by the people he hands around every day. Truly depressing.

The guy I like now has disappeared. Literally, although I know the reason behind it. It makes me look at all my luck (what I have of it, anyway) and go "UGHHHH!!"

I'm becoming more and more un-myself. I can't explain it, but I'm noticing it more and more. It makes me sad. I can't help but feel a little hatred towards the me I've become. I wish I could just look at the way I am from a different perspective. Maybe I could notice a few ways in which I could improve, in order to stop annoying people so much!

it's black outside

It's a well known fact that I'm a huge coward. I never really liked the darkness and the only horror movie I ever watched made me have nightmares for 3 whole weeks. That's why it totally sucks that its completely dark outside now, when it's only 4:38 pm.

I made crepe for breakfastwith chocolate sauce and sugar. It was delicious! I ate three in one go. I also had some frappucino. You know, I used despise coffee, because it always tasted so bitter. But a few weeks ago when I put, like, two whole spoonfulls of sugar into it, it tasted mountains better!

I started writing a new story. The last story I wrote was already about 5400 words long but since my laptop memory was erased, none of it got saved. I still grieve for it today :(

It was about a girl working at a hotel during the summer. Her uncle is the manager of the hotel and it's what she does nearly every summer since she's 13. Then one day, this family checks in and they have a daughter -- and a son. The son is called Blake and average looking. He isn't a playboy and isn't cocky. He and the girl, who's called Belinda, get to know each other through room service. I want to rewrite it, but it just seems weird. I hate my laptop for doing that to me!!

My new story is more serious, non of the soppy love stuff, but still with a pinch of romance. It's from different points of views and is kind of rated. But who cares, thats love for you.

Which reminds me...the guy I "love" probably thinks I hate him. Seriously! When I want to say something kind, it always sounds as if I'm trying to bad mouth him or called him an idiot. It's really frustrating.

I need to get ready for tomorrow now. It's the performance and I won't have time to do any homework, which sucks. I need to figure out my costume and get my accessories ready. I hope I won't do anything idiotic, as I always do :S

A photo of me and my friends:

just one of those days when you nearly drop dead because you're so tired

This entry is going to very short, because my head is drooping because I'm sooo sleepy...I woke up really early today, despite it being Saturday, to go to the McDonald's to shoot the film for our performance. I waited there 20 minutes like an idiot until Magnus finally came. I missed that guy!

We went through the filming, then headed to school, where we rehearsed until we stopped for a lunch break. Huge pizzas were ordered and a dance sessions started meanwhile. It was such a VIS moment :). When the pizzas arrived everyone was really silent, munching away on the pies. They were really good.

After rehearsal, I did a shopping session and returned home all exhausted and in great need of H2O. I drank a whole bottle of Fanta in one go and ate a whole packet of oreos. My day was made.

And now to make my day even better, I'm going to bed. mwah.

Just one of those days

So we got our photos today. Just the mention of the word gave me the shivers...class photos and me don't get along that well, you see. And I was right. Seriously, I looked like a gray-faced, over-tanned, wax-made, shiny-faced freak! I nearly screamed when I say it. Seriously. I mean, my last year's photos compared to this year's is like gazillion times better.
It didn't help that I looked asleep in our actual class photo.
I didn't get to go to Badmintton, because I had to attend Chatroom rehearsal. We didn't do a lot of parts where I had to say something, so it was kind of boring.
I am really numb. I'm not interested in anything and everything is just waaay boring. Tomorrow is half day, so I might be going shopping afterschool, but I really can't be bothered with anything else.

I might get a box of chocolates and chips and some popcorn and watch a really romantic film. That always cheers me up!!

hiking on sunday

I'm really exhausted. Which means that my muscles will hurt hardcore tomorrow, and that isn't such a great piece of news to me. Since I have double Physical Ed. Ughhhh!

Anyway, I went hiking today to Leopoldsberg and there was so much snow!! It was really picturesque and it wasn't even cold cuz I had my fat mittens with :D
Tomorrow is school, and I really don't wanna go. I mean, school isn't something I hate. It's just that I'm a student, and it's a student's obligation to not like school. It's a part of nature.

I uploaded a new deviation onto DeviantArt. Take a look, check it out!
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A feeling of boredom

So here I am, trying to chop away all my homework, but really just not wanting to do anything else. I'm going to the bazaar later, but until then I really just want to, um, chill. I got my report yesterday. It's not the real thing, just like a warning. It was okay, although I could have done better in Physics...

It's snowy and white outside and in school yesterday we had a snow fight! Well, actually it was outside, by the tracks. Hell, if we'd thrown snow inside school then we'd all get our heads chopped off :S

I'm currently occupied with my newest obsession, code name "Sausage" (my friends thought of that so don't tell me how much you think it sucks :P).

Visit my deviantart:
LOVEMONSTAR.DEVIANTART'

Which reminds me. In art our topic is Mixed Media, collage etc, so I made a few to put on my DeviantArt (link above), but here is a sample all the same.

unbelievably non fiction

So much happened today that - if this were all a book - would never happen. Seriously, I mean which female character in a story would make as much mistakes as I do? It's really annoying.

For the performance of Chatroom I will need to wear a pink top, a pink jumper, jeans and have a soft cuddly toy as a prop. I'm thinking of maybe my teddy or my hello kitty soft toy :)

I'm still trying to get indesign without paying the 800 or so euros for it, so if any of you have it, please tell me asap (best before the 30th of november!).

I'm starting a coppermine gallery soon for all the styles ive greated in the past, and also for those I'm going to create in the future. I hope that you guys will like it.

I don't have a lot of homework, though I do need to learn a few of my lines for the play. Plus, I also have to learn the script for our other drama play, for World Aids Day. Ugh!!!

Snow on the ground blah blah

I won't go do the whole "ZOMG ZOMG IT'S SNOWING AND I'M SOO IN LOVE WITH IT!" crap because, let's face it, how many times have we heard that? So I'm not going to be annoying and scare the shit out of all of you.

I have a new DeviantArt account! I haven't actually added any of my art onto it, but I will this afternoon, so check back here for the link! I finished my english questions, my chinese homework and am now trying to finish this one review I've been trying to finish for 2 months :P

Yesterday I went to Stephansplatz shopping, which wasn't a good idea since it was raining, but whatever. I love to pass by Hermes and Louis Vuitton and Gucci and Escada, because you see all these really serious-looking security/bodyguards there and they're always checking you out and guessing whether you're a criminal or not. It's truly hilarious! I'll try to get a picture next time :)

I'm still learning my lines for Chatroom, since there are these really random lines I have to say out of the blue, like "Jesus" and "No you're not" so I have to always be on the alert. What I really need now is a cup of coffe so ttfn!

Watch this and help win!

This is the the YouTube contest at our school. We already have 272 view the last time I checked, which was about 5 mintues ago. Watch it please!!

Jagged ways

so I completely embarassed myself today, on more than one account. I had this unusual emotional jag, a depression state (which lasted for about 3 hours), a hyper moment (2 seconds) and definitely pain (braces). So I really have to say that today was just an oh-so-typical teen day, full of disasters and chaos and total, utter embarrassments.

I don't know how to get over tomorrow :( But at least there's something to look forward too...

So much for team work

So right now I'm trying to do the write up of our ideas and script for tomorrow in drama, but the thing is I have no idea what our group is doing. I mean, I know the overall idea, but I just don't know which characters are playing etc. ugh, and no one from my group is replying and im stuck at 1/5 of the work load.

The performance we're working on is to be performed at the United Nations (UN) on World Aids Day and they should be mainly around the topic Aids or discrimination...or something like that.

But I don't care. It's not going to be my fault, because hello? I never signed up to be the idea generator. I just said I would be the writer-uper and that they had to send me the info and details. But did they? Oh no. They're probably all at the DZ shopping mall playing with the exhibition of Xbox there or something.

I hate teamwork when it's like this!

Annoyed is the word

Oh god, why can't this damned ipod nano just be normal and actually let me put songs into it?! Okay, I have to calm down. But since the fact I got my PMS in the morning IT'S NOT HELPING!

Okay, so I finally got the iPod Nano 3rd generation today and was totally thriled. It's really tiny and looks cute. I never knew that such a little thing could cause so much trouble. So I was getting all the music into my iTunes and then my laptop crashed, because the battery ran out. And by the time I plugged it in again all my songs were gone. Seriously. Even my Princess Diaries Audiobooks...

So I was really worried. I mean, how was I supposed to get all those 400 songs back?! So I went to my folders to check, and then - voila - there I found them all, in my shared folder. I was so hyper after that! Hyperly happy that is :P

So then I just got around to Syncing my iPod, getting everything onto it etc etc. Ugh, so much emotional stress! It really looks nice though (though it feels a bit breakable) and it looks definately stylish :P. But I wish I didn't have to go through so much emotional drama.

Tomorrow after school, I've got a rehearsal for Chatroom. I've learned all my lines and I'm ready. But I wish that we could change the rehearsal days to wednesday and friday (the reason being that I have a dentist appointment on thursday, so I'm missing one of the rehearsals and I have chinese tomorrow at 16:15, which means I won't have time to do my chinese HW last minute...)

Just the same

Life recently has been quite stable, no emotional eruptions or psychotic activities (e.g. speaking to myself, caught up in vickyland etc). And I have to say, it's getting quite boring!

Yesterday I was on DevianArt fo, like, 3 hours looking at all the avante garde photography and collaging going on there. Some of the work is really good, and the artists are only 15 or 17, not much older than I am. Which, of course, gives me a lot of pressure. I'm thinking of starting my own DevianArt account. If I produce a piece of art that's remotely similar to one, then I'll be over the moon. If only I had the talent. (Below is a perfect example, from DevianArt):



I haven't done anything exciting for three days already, ever since halloween. Halloween was really quite the giggles-maker! On tuesday (30th October) I went to my friend Nicole's house for a sleepover. Paula was also supposed to go, but since she asked her parents at the last minute she couldn't make it. So it was just Nicole and me. We had tons to do, like writing an article for our student magazine, The Spotlight, playing with the dog (what was her name again? Poppy or Puppy...?) who was staying at their place, watching movies, eating snacks...To my relief, Nicole didn't force any horror movies onto me (I'm a total wimp when it comes to them :S), and instead we watched Tim Burton's Corpe Bride, How to Deal (I need to get the book that it's based on! It's by Sarah Dessen) and What a Girl Wants.

On Halloween I went over to Rebecca's house sometime after noon. I didn't dress up really much, just had a pair of bat wings and moose antlers (don't ask). We pranked people by calling them - people we know - and, after they had picked up with a, "Hello?", we all shouted "HAPPY HALLOWEEN!".

Rofl, their reactions ranged from "What...?" to "HOLY CRAP!!". It was ridiculously fun! To our disappointment, no kiddos came over to us for Trick or Treat, although we did have a false alarm when Rebecca's dad came back and we all thought it was the kids. We ordered pizza, and they were really pretty good (I haven't gotten delivered stuff in ages).

A totally depressing thing happened...I missed an interview with a friend of mine on ORF! Ugh, imagine my self-hatred when I saw a screenshot of it on her profile...I totally kicked myself! But I can always hope that they'll put it on YouTube or something.

School's starting tomorrow after our fast-passing-one-week break, and I'm sort of relieved. At least I get to see all my friends again! And the guy I like...