These OMGing days

I can't remember the last time everything has been so hectic. Yesterday afterschool I had to rush home then rush back to school for a brief rehearsal before our actual performance of Chatroom. I was really tired and my stomach being low on food, didn't help a lot.

It turned out to go pretty well. At one point, I'd forgotten when to go on stage again, so I just went earlier...just in case. It turned out that I was too early, so I had to wait on stage for 2 whole scenes before I could say my two petty lines.

Anyway, right now I'm in the library, with still 30 minutes left before my chinese lesson. So I'll give you a bit more info about the people around me every day:

This guy I used to like is turning out very different. He used to have a little something and now that little something is quenched by the people he hands around every day. Truly depressing.

The guy I like now has disappeared. Literally, although I know the reason behind it. It makes me look at all my luck (what I have of it, anyway) and go "UGHHHH!!"

I'm becoming more and more un-myself. I can't explain it, but I'm noticing it more and more. It makes me sad. I can't help but feel a little hatred towards the me I've become. I wish I could just look at the way I am from a different perspective. Maybe I could notice a few ways in which I could improve, in order to stop annoying people so much!